I am not Helium

Familiarity. Too much of it will render me dull, inert and stagnant. I believe.

Change. It almost always happen when I suffer from a life-or-career-mental-block. I am excited and anxious about it.

I have made a big decision to tender my resignation last nov and I am glad that I walked away from all, this Feb.

Many have envied about me having the guts to quit without a job thereby able to have long extended vacation as well as sipping morning coffee nonchalantly in a coffeeshop while watching the cliche morning crowds doubling up to start their nine-to-five routine. Honestly, I can validate that quiting without a job breeds haunting anxieties.

In fact, the anxiety nucleates from the uncertainty of what is going to happen next when I made a decision to change. I knew I am anxious about uncertainty and I have decided to give myself a chance to see how I react to this intentionally-induced uncertainty that is now slowly creeping within. I hope I can learn fast and thereby getting use to cope with any uncertainties that might come uninvited in future though I have had a fair share of life-changing uncertainties some 10 years ago.

It is not surprising to my good old buddies that I tend to stay away from familarity. Familarity, stability and predictability are the typical inert states that many have sought and will continuously put in more effort to achieve this inertness.

However, I believe these inert state aggravates the inertia to move forward and most importantly, they are primary sources of boredom.

This current state of mind has confirmed me wanting to change, more than allowing myself to become an inert individual.

P.S. Borrowing from my high school chemistry, ground-state-matters are hardly exciting and have limited use unless they are escalated to their excited state.