Justified existence

Yesterday, my boss dropped a subtle hint. I think

“……we must justify our existence.. the existence of our department…… by the level of service we can offer for this site….”

I took this very seriously. Paranoid.

To be honest, I'm not totally surprised by this. I think the “cheese” that I am enjoying, is getting old.

I knew I will still be guaranteed a job, probably for another six months. I think it is enough for me to look for greener pastures.

While taking the bull by the horns is good, hasty reaction is bad. I feel that if I started my hunt for the greener greens now, I would be reacting to situations. This could lead to grave errors and misjudgments. I think I am going to give myself time -- at least until the end of this year -- and let the emotional impact I had earlier and reactions to this subtle hint to work their way through me. Then I think I can direct my wants to act more wisely.

Silly Civil War

This morning is silly. I can’t help but to feel sorry for a fellow colleague – PHD Ah Beng who was caught in a crossfire between his direct supervisor Mrs-Kia-See and her manager Mr-Kia-Su (Mrs-Kia-See’s Boss).

The hullabaloo is about Mrs-Kia-See refusing to undertake the role of Development-Technical-Personnel, thereby refusing to approve some documents generated for some system testing. Every soul in the project clearly remembers that Mr Kia-Su appointed her as the technical guru of this system and this appointment has been duly documented and concurred.

While, Mr Kia-Su is whipping PHD Ah Beng’s ass to get these documents signed and proceed to qualify that half-a-millon-crappy-robot, Mrs Kia-See refuses to sign PHD Ah Beng’s document. She claimed she is not aware that she is branded as the technical guru and she knew nothing about this robot. They have created an embarrassing scene leaving an outsider --- souplad, dumbfounded at one corner. I feel sorry for PHD Ah Beng and was pretty disgusted by Mr Kia-Su and Mrs Kia-See’s behavior.

I left.

Couldn’t bear the sight of a “civil war”.

PHD Ah Beng, don’t lose sleep because of this. You have to continue working with them for at least one and a half year.

Souplad can offer a pair of listening ears and probably u can reciprocate with a pint of ice-cold-beer.

Burnt

Pitch Dark.

I can see darkness.

Deafening Silence.

I can hear my breath.

I inhale deeply… drawing the clouds of relief deep down my lungs, numbing my soul for a few seconds.

My head is numbed. Blank.

Not happy, not sad, not angry, not pleased…….

It contains nothingness.

Let me sink into this virtual relief.



It was a very stressful week. I have spent my 11am, 12pm, 1pm, 2pm 3pm, 4pm, 5pm, 6pm, 7pm, 8pm, 9pm……in the freezing labs, last weekend.

I am glad it is going to be over soon.

Smutty six packed abs

anti-porn drive

If they sanctioned this in the PENAL CODE.......

ROFL....