Thoughts and Smiles

I thought of her again.

I thought I was doing well not to think of her again.

I thought I could understand why people were born as jerks

I thought I could refrain myself from jumping into conclusions

I thought I was betrayed

I thought I was misunderstood

I thought I could control my emotions

I thought I was smarter

I thought I was stronger

I thought I could forget

I thought I could sleep

I thought I was unreasonable

I though I was insane

In the end, I was inanely foolish, pathetically indulge in melancholic thoughts and useless wanting.

A sleepless Saturday 4am. Alone in the house.

I hate to be left alone these days…yes….. recently …. I have to cope with myself …with the pain that was relentless chewing my soul. It was an exquisite pain.

Heart was grasped, slashed and topped with immense acidity. Pounding with an erratic beat.

Alone…. Relentlessly thinking about her, allowing myself to be heartstabbed

Flashes of her soothing smile, her beautiful face and flawless hair embraces my heart, hurting and healing it.

However, no regrets, I should have.

For the immense feelings towards her,

For a better understanding of myself,

For a realisation of selfishness and

For my wrenched heart

I need to smile and talk normally.


I’m not crazy, I’m just a little unwell, I know, right now u can’t tell………………

Chin Chin Tabero...Ouch!

Wednesday. Was out having a farewell dinner for my collegue who will be leaving next week for perth. The dinner went on fine and was followed by some small talk. As expected, sex, babes, cars, jobs were almost always the common things to talk about.

We were told "Chin Chin tabero" meant BJ in jap.

Guess what, Tabe means eat.

WTF.

It would be a tragedy if any jap cuties take it literally by giving one's willy a nice deep hard SM bite. OUCH! WTF!

Apparently, the following jap phrase may be useful.

blow me -- shabbute
manko -- c**t
chinko -- c**k
ie ohpai da ne -- You have great titties
paizuri -- titty f**k
itai -- pain
iku -- I’m cumming
ikisou -- I’m really cumming
onanii metaii? -- masturbating, want to see?

Dun bother to look these up in any jap dictionaries... some of them are pure colloquial terms

Learning jap in double quick time............


Cheers for more to come and be free

OH U TOUCH MY TRA LA LA, HMM MY DING DING DONG

I was laughing out loud after reading Limbueytor post.

I decided to blast "OH U TOUCH MY TRA LA LA, HMM MY DING DING DONG" featured in his post,out loud in my office.

A perky partyish friday morning.

S**t! I can't get this tra-la-la-ding-ding-dong out of my head. There must be some inherent GONG TAO (Hokkein Term : VooDoo) inherent in this tra-la-la-ding-ding-dong.

NGOR YEW SEK FA HAI

Used to torture my housemate and friends with my cantonese.... Especially pronouncing Crab in cantonese.... HAI..

Flower Crab FA HAI....

eat crab SEK HAI......

Apparently, I have to be very careful when I utter HAI..... cos HAI in a light HIGH singing tone means C**T, P**SY....

NGOR YEW SEK FA HAI... whatever it means.....*smirk*

Saya tak cakap Melayu, boleh cakap inggeris?

Had a great fun time, chatting with my malaysian friends in BM.

Obviously, my BM sucks. I picked up my malay when I was serving my National Service and that was a decade ago.

Saya Buruk Melayu...rosak ...terok...tak boleh jalan....... haha

I enjoyed torturing my fellow housemates and malaysian friends with my BM. Would be good if I can see them plea for mercy....haha

selepas baca aku buruk BM, kamu muntah darah, hehe

bersorak untuk lebih ke datang dan ialah bebas,

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My housemate replies...

gosh.. lemme guess what you have typed into the translator sw.

==> After reading my poor Malay, you vomit blood
cheers for more to come and "is free"??

BUT what actually got out its way was:

===> after reading I spoilt the BM *TET*, you vomit blood
cheers to come forward (lebih ke datang *TET*... wrong grammar) and it is free?

hehehehe

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ROFL...

My Twentyness Part II

I knew she was badly affected by the dismissal. Perhaps the great expectations of her trust and loyalty being reciprocated were inane. Afterall, loyalty and trust was nothing but a fable. She thought

Her state of mind was in total chaos. She continued to weep. The sadness in her eyes was immense.

I knew she was extremely attached to what she was doing for a living. She was utterly confused and disappointed.

Having to assist feeding a family of five, she began to worry.

Her man was out of town. She needed support. There wasn’t any.

She was weak, helpless and confused.

“I am not useless.” “Take it. Take whatever you want”…. flinging clothes out of the window. The sadness in her eyes had transformed into frightening rage.

She was beyond recognition.

Her precious five were frightened. Her eyes… her eyes…..that’s not my mummy exclaimed the lil’ one.

A series of unfortunate events followed………………..

My twentyness Part I

It was a Wednesday morning 1991.

Her bloodshot eyes filled with rage and hatred. Malicious words poured.

I knew she felt shortchanged, betrayed and ditched.

She toiled for this five-star hotel.

She was one of the pioneers in this five-star hotel.

She knew everyone and every corner of this five-star hotel.

She took pride in her job

She refused to acknowledge the dismissal and stormed out of the office.

I dried her tears. We head back.

I could not sense the beginning of a tragedy, then.

Tragedy was imminent.

Bird's Eye View

Cool shit....

check this out.

Google Earth

Be a lunch victim

WTF

Almost puke my guts out when I stumbled upon Sixthseal

A Saturday Glory

I had a great Friday chill-out in "Forbidden City". I was absurdly amused and entertained at the expense of my friend. I dun think I wana risk my nuts being cracked by elaborating his embarrassment. Apparently, he was misunderstood. Poor Guy. Muahahahaha

Adjourned to Bencoolen Street to have some late supper early breakfast, realising it was almost 4am.

I need to wake up at 6am to catch the first train to tampines and reach Loyang by 8am for a full day activity.

Absolutely zonked when I reached home. I zoomed straight into my room and slumber immediately. I can only have barely 2 hours of sleep.

It shall be a full 2 hour unadulterated sleep.




I forced myself to open my crusty eyes.......

Felt like a train had just rammed into my left brain causing great pain and a simultaneous vertigo. F**k.... migraine. I have to live with this for another three or more days, at least. F**k.

It was 730am. My subconscious still struggling with my consciousness to pick myself up and rush to loyang by 8am (Mission impossible).

Reluctantly, I dragged myself to the washroom. I am not sure what I have drank on the previous night, my Saturday morning was still ragingly glorified even after I have brushed my teeth and after a quick shower. *smirk*

I have to cab.

Almost 20 bucks! Manage to reach Loyang at 850am.

Realised that we have to wait as the bus ferrying the kids from a children's home broke down.

As a result, we waited for another 30 minutes.

Rush to wait. Life's a bitch, isn't it?

Took a deep breath and realise the sun smiles, its gonna be a good day for a good cause.

Cheers for more to come and be free.